October 2011
2 posts
I really appreciate bromances
sometimes i just want to scream LOVE ME MORE
August 2011
1 post
So it’s not like I can even pretend that I use this anymore since its been many months but I have some things to say. A few days ago we completely ended our speaking terms, and as much as I’m grateful of it now, I completely didn’t want to when I started. I was hoping that we could work something out before the school year ends next year, just so that I wouldn’t go to...
February 2011
3 posts
wish me luck
i hate people who dont try and i hateeeeeeee loving people who dont try even more.
i hate so many things right now, and i just wish the world stopped and let me cry
the only thing worse then you being a douchebag, is that i still love you
January 2011
1 post
i have not done this in a while.
distractions are the only things getting me by at this point.
October 2010
5 posts
rough rough morning. and even though its supposed to be considered the afternoon now, ive kept on with the same conversation so in my mind its still morning.
cooling down from a long week is so hard. its white and its so close to his i can see it from his backyard. the mother is a babe. competition is awful. im already not very confident as it is i dont need little miss sunshine to make me hate myself any more.
fuck the seasons. they suck. i hate it when they try to butt into your lives, and ruin them. i hate it when they try to take away the people you love. the only people you care about. seasons suck. i hate seasons.
the essay i just had to write for mr. fabian was hard then any essay ive ever written in my entire life. even harder then my thesis. thank god that im fucking done.
im not excited to go to bed, because if i get excited to go to bed im going to have to realize that i have to write a three page paper, and that makes me really upset. just finished the last two pieces of pizza from the glorious day i just had, and am sadly still hungry. i was energetic and fun all day but now that no one is here i feel lonely. i should watch more criminal minds because that...
the past few days were completely worth it. i have never felt so relaxed and proud :]
September 2010
6 posts
i was supposed to babysit tonight, but she cancelled on me because the boys wanted to have sleepovers. understandeable/. well now i have another night to myself because my mom is going to yet another party where she got all dolled up for and bough a manicure and pedicure as she does every saturday ive been alive. i have to do a spanish project while shes gone. its supposed to be a poem on myself...
well it has certainly been a long time since ive been on this. i actually had a dream about which told me to write something. to be honest im kind of sad i didnt write anything when i was in the cape. may memories there captured in photos but not in words. i like words. well anyways i guess ill just hope all of those good moments stay with me as there is nothing else to ask for. anyways i am in...
August 2010
39 posts
(to myself i refer to you as my precious)
im babysitting right now for the most adorable little boys in the world. they are playing with legos, and until fairly recently i was too. i have to eat something because i am starvingggg. oreos for breakfast? i think of COURSE.
i am leaving for the cape tomorrow. im pretty sure i have all of my clothes packed…now i just need to worry about toiletries..which will not include tampons but...
i usually start packing earlier than this when i go to chatham. i always forget the important things and take all the unnecessary crap i dont need. this week in the cape is probably going to be my last because i want to save money to go to paraguay before i graduate. i need more than a year to prepare for that. a lot of money. dont know how some people do it. anyways, i definitely have to start...
i am watching Dexter and appreciating every minute of it. i must say that i liked him a lot better as a gay man in Six Feet Under.. still hes working with dead people so its still good.
let me tell you something about maine. it steals. it steals people and families and cars. it has fairs and cozy houses and living rooms with fire places. it has lakes and oceans. but i dont have the skills of stealing cars and families. i am neither a fair or a cozy house. a living room with a fire place, a lake or an ocean. i am just me. and i am nothing with out that family.
watching a movie with my twin. ate my weight in cheddar popcorn. treadmill is sooo necessary tomorrow.
gone. my two favorite people are gone. GONE
VETS ARE SO NECESSARY. THEY SAVE LITTLE PUPPY FEET.
the priest that baptized me is coming over to eat dinner at my house tonight. actually hes supposed to be here in less than a half hour. ive been helping my mother get ready for this glorious occasion for the past hour and a half. i have a laundry basket full of clothes that i need to put away still, and i have a dryer full of more laundry that is running as i write this. i spent the 20 minutes of...
friends are the family you wish you had.
family are the people you can never lean on.
ive been thinking lately about how inconsistent my emotions are. i can have a wonderful time, remember something, and then have that wonderful moment just crushed because of what i remembered. usually i stay up late at night and think about things im too scared to think about during the day. there are people i know who can forget easier than i can. or when i say forget i guess i just mean that...